looking at this empty text thingy as i start a new post.. suddenly a tot ran into my mind and it went sumthing lyk... omg... another page of dicussion.. how am i going to start.. and how am i going to complete it by tonite....
Its been real long since i haf dis report aftermath symptom...
FYP is finally over.... where was the sense of satisfaction and pride i tot i wld haf at that moment when i was going to submit my report... the odd feeling starts to come again as i handed up this report i felt real empty...
ANTI-CLIMAX.. tt's the word i would use to describe.. no sense of satisfaction.. no pride... no relief feeling... no feelings of content.... juz a few compressed low-ness that was left over uncleared... for the report had probably accompanied me almost everyday.. it seemed lyk i had lost a fren... and i felt odd... i felt lonely inside.. perhaps it was just my nature of hating changes...
Again, tots and tots... millions of tots.. as i reflect for wad i did for the last few dayz.. i felt that i did a bad job for fyp report... finding crap to discuss... making assumption on everything.. filling the report with words.. deriving more pages from it...
an awfully poor attitude towards the report... I'm afraid i could not do well for fyp due to the poorly written discussion.. but i'm more afraid that my grpmates will suffer from it.. At least, i wld feel guilty if their grades were affected due to my incompetence... esp to jingsi who had really contributed A LOT to this project and had put lots of pride in it... after all i'm juz a role player in the team... a more significant one... my effort should not affect the perfomance and result of the team.. but i really appreciate the trust that was given to me to handle the whole report...
I wld lyk to take the chance to express my gratitude towards ppl who had helped me alot in making the completion of report possible...
Jing Si - Thank you for being in our group... Without you.. i guess we would haf been struggling from the start and probably at a complete lost towards the dateline of the report... You really did a lot for our team and for our project.
st - thnx for all the jia you and aja.. hahaha... esp that one when i was printing a report... really keep me going... thnx for accompanying thru my rushing fyp report dayzz... get well soon wor..
jasmine - If you did not realise.... i tot u had help me alot along this path... teached me how to do the student t thingy... offer help to our project whenever possible... help me ask for petri film and all tt... i really appreciate ya helpfulness... Thank you...
wj - hahaha... thnx for concerning on the progress of my report and offered some practical yet unpractical way to complete and print my report asap...
thnx to the other many ppl who had contributed to the 146 jia youz i've heard.. ok... tt amount was the exeggerated one... hahaha... i tot it was not impossible..
oh yah.... muz oso thnx pingz for giving me a bottle of moisturiser to help me overcome my contact dermatitis.... v sweet of u.. lol... but i bu she de use it wor... but will use it de la... if not defeat de purpose... its de care and concern tt matters ritez? lol...
anyway.. todae was sports league.... super bo liao.. play one rd go final liao.... zzz... after tt went out to haf dinner wif those guyz out dere... tok cock all the way to counter my lowness.. and it felt good tt my crap was acknowledge oso.. perhaps the steriod was making me high temporary ba...
hmm.. dunno wad to say liao... shall end here... byebye~~
